Bees in my Bonnet

"art for real people"

Friday, September 01, 2006

.......aaaaand I'm SPENT......

Hey all!

I cannot believe how quickly this summer went! It really feels like fall here today! It’s sunny and still warm but every so often the wind comes up suddenly and I hear the surprisingly loud sound of rustling leaves on the trees and the most wonderful “tinkling” sound from the wind chime that hangs right inside my studio window. Most of the wind chimes I’ve heard are so noisy…but this fabulous thing was made from antique silverware and purchased at a craft show several years ago and I love it! I wish I could describe to you the sound it makes. It reminds me of meals long ago with family. Yes there was talking and sometimes even arguing but more times than not, there was quiet while we filled our mouths and all you could hear was the sound of the old silverware as it “clanked” against itself.

This isn't a very good picture but it was still fun to try and show you though! The flattened spoons are hanging from a fork that's had it's tines straightened into 4 different directions!

A lot has happened to me this past year. As most of you know my sweet older sister died suddenly at the age of 56 and I am really struggling with her absence in my life. I don’t know if it’s mainly that, or the fact that I just finished my year long challenge on ebay or if I am just at a crossroads in my life, or if I’m just HORMONAL..hahaha…..BUT I feel convinced that I have to take a few months off from EVERYTHING and just get my head together.

This is us several years ago. My sister who is heaven now is the one sitting dressed in red and I am the one in the middle back with my cheeks about to explode! I don't know what we were laughing at but I'm sure it was hilarious at the time! My other two sweet sisters are on each side of me and I cherish them soooo much! This was about 5 or 6 years ago and I wear glasses now and I'm sure I've gained some weight! Oh well!

I am absolutely so thankful for being able to make a living doing what I LOVE to do but in some ways it’s more difficult than having a conventional job. I have had to be a self starter…keeping myself motivated every day. Also having a literally hundreds of ways I “could go” is sometimes overwhelming. I have so many ideas that sometimes I lose sleep and that is actually the reason my business is called “Bees in my Bonnet”…because of all the ideas buzzing around in my brain. Don’t get me wrong…I am so grateful for the talent God has given me but it’s difficult to turn it off. Getting up every day and motivating myself has not been difficult for me in the past because I love what I’m doing but lately it’s begun to be more of a chore than art. I know that any job you have is not always fun and there are times when you just need to push thru but this is not one of those times. I desperately need some time to grieve my sister’s passing without the pressure of what I have to “make” next. Hopefully I will also be able to catch up on some much needed house organizing and get some groceries in my fridge. That moldy cheese and jar of pickle juice are getting awfully lonely.

I know….KNOW….art will always be what I want to do! It is something that I could NEVER walk away from. With the exception of God and my family it is my reason for getting up in the morning. I love it…so no worries about if I will return….just when….

I just wanted to let everyone know what’s going on in my life and thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the support I’ve had since I started selling on ebay 6 years ago.

I hope to check in here whenever I feel like it so if I have anything earthshattering to say it will be on my blog!

I love you all!